Wednesday, May 14, 2008

"Snap out of it, Leah!!!"

Sorry to all who faithfully check my blog and are regularly disappointed with the lack of new content. Alot has been going on in our family and I just haven't felt like blogging. Jeremy was laid off and is in the process of finding a new job. Relocation is a real possibility and the stress of it all has made me a little melancholy.

I turned 35 today and it just hasn't made me too thrilled. There are alot of internal/personal changes/goals that need to be made/accomplished in my life, and I thought I would have made more progress by the big "35". It's a little depressing to not reach your goals... How many more times can I say to myself, "I'll do better this year" or "I'll get that done by the end of the year" ? At what point do I admit to myself that I really am not going to lose the weight, become a runner, get organized, have a regular quiet time, always finish what I start, clean the kitchen every night, be a better friend, keep a tidy closet, yada, yada, yada...?

I am so blessed to be loved by many and cherished by my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. I must remind myself of this when I get in a funk like this. I feel as if I lose focus of my role here on earth when I get this self-absorbed. I wonder if I did a time line of each time that I wrote a depressing blog like this that it would always fall during my "time of the month"? I bet it would...

9 comments:

Susanne said...

I think you just need a little simplee seafood lunch with yours truly. Did Jeremy do anything special for your birthday? Have a great afternoon!

Leah said...

Nothing special done. He did give me a sweet card and apologize profusely for having to travel on my b'day. Our anniversary is the 25th and we are going to do something special then.
I would love a lunch with you. Next week may work. Thanks for the invite!

Anonymous said...

What if you did some journaling? Not like obsessive, "everyday I have to write something" journaling, but frequent, early morning writing while you are connecting with God(out on your front porch), or are piled up in the bed after the children are down for the night(and Jeremy is out of town). have found that this really does help sort out things and gives me a boost at a later time when i look back and remember what God showed me/taught me. xoxoxoxox-------MOM

Jen said...

Leah, you are loved, and the "funk" is real to all of us! (Usually it IS that time of the month!) :-) Praying for you and your family!! (Just so you know, my funk was 2 weeks ago, I just passed the big 35, and I have to admit that this back and forth weather doesn't help)! Looking forward to consistent sunny days, and God's guidance in your family's life!!!

Jena said...

Bummer that you're b-day wasn't as spectacular as you would have like it to be, but just know that when you're having a "funky" day some of us "younger" girls look at you like you're superwoman, juggling all the things you're involved in(MOPS, AWANA, Bible studies, tutoring, etc) while being a wife and mommmy (a lot of the time along b/c of all the traveling Jeremy does) and still taking the time to encourage others and look good doing it! I hope Jeremy ends up getting a job here, but if you move, I know you'll fit right in and get involved wherever life takes you!
Oh, and you're a stinkin' young looking 35!

Leah said...

Thanks to everyone for the kind words.
Happy Birthday, Jen! Was your birthday the night of the recital? If so, yuck!
We still don't know where we are going to be but it looks like it will be here or Memphis, TN. Jeremy and I have been praying that God will make the decision clear. We are planning on being able to make the decision this weekend. We hope that we will have all the info. we need to make the best choice for our family.
I am trying to remember to bloom where I am planted. It doesn't really matter where we live, but what I do to glorify God there.

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